hi, my names madi, pleased to meet you

dayummm
its been FER EVZ.
how ya been?
cool, cool.
so i've taken a great liking to the word 'homes' lately.
i like MUCH.
so i've been pretty busy all week.
monday-play practice, bobby's w| danielle and kiersten
tuesday-play practice, maddie & kiersten came over
wednesday-play practice, ??? i can't remember
thursday-play practice
friday-movies with jacob, ashley, annie & maddie.

and now today.
saturday.
so lets talk about last night:
got ready,
jacob came over,
got picked up by maddie,
went to rave,
AND THEN THE BULL SHITTIN STARTED TO OCCUR...

so we get to rave and we were trying to decide what we should see,
and fucking annie wouldn't agree on shit.
she kept saying 'i saw that already, no that looks stupid, no i'm not allowed to see that'
its like WHAT CAN YOU FUCKING SEE?!?!
so, we didn't end up seeing a goddamn movie.
we had to walk across the street to fucking red robin and i have to pay for a three dollar drink.
and annie was just being a total BITCH the entire time,
so when she and ashley left to go to the bathroom,
me, maddie, and kinda jacob i guess put a bunch of salt and sugar and pepper in her drink.
and she didn't notice until she was done with it.
so that pissed her off,
but i figured she'd get over it.
so then she's like LETS GO TO BARNES AND NOBLES!!!
and im like okay,
(because i normally have fun just hanging out there)
BUT SHE WENT TO GO TALK TO THE FUCKING TEACHERS FOR 45 MINUTES BECAUSE THEY WERE THERE FOR SOME QUEER BARNES AND NOBLES FUNDRAISER SHIT.
so me and jacob just walked around looking at books and just doing our thing.
FOR. FORTY. FIVE. MINUTES.
so then we like couldn't get ahold of maddie or annie,
and we were calling and calling.
finally we found them,
and i was like
'why were you guys talking to teachers for like an hour??'
and AS LOUD AS SHE CAN, annie goes,
"HE'S RIGHT THERE YOU KNOW, AND I LOVE MR. SLOMPSKY!"
(he was in front of them in line for starbucks)
and i'm like wow okay whatever
so i get ashley and jake and we start to walk around again,
and then we go back over there to see what they were doing,
and they were talking to these ninth graders that i somewhat knew.
and i was like trying to say hi to them and like get annie so we could like all hang out, like it was originally planned.
but annie kept giving these shitty glances to me,
and even JACOB was like 'what the fuck?'
and i go 'whatever' and walk a ways back.

so then annie looks up at me and goes,
"I LOST MY PHONE"
and i look her up and down and go 'oh'
because i was getting pretty pissed.

and me ashley and jacob walk away.
so we're over by the biographies and i guess we were being too loud,
because this cop comes over to us and goes,
'why dont you guys go and wait outside, because your causing a disruption and disrespecting the books'
and we go 'uhh okay whatever'
and walk outside.
well it was FREEZING,
and i didn't have a jacket,
so i was trying to get ahold of maddie to tell them we were gonna go to another store because we got kicked out,
but she kept answering and hanging up.
and i was getting PISSED. i mean *PISSED*
so finally she gets the message i sent that we got kicked out,
and goes 'were on our way...'
(was the ... necessary? like really?)
and i go 'k...'
and they took like 15 minutes JUST to walk outside,
and when they do,
they like don't even talk to me.
like walk ahead of us,
and just would be shitty.
so i go, whatever.
and me and ashley were just kinda like 'what the fuck'
so we were waiting by rave for annies mom to pick us up,
and she's just like being a BITCH.
so by then i just wasnt paying attention and i was talking to jacob.


so we get home,
and maddie calls me and goes,
"if bobby calls you or you talk to him tell him i was off with 10th graders the entire time"
and i go "no, im busy"
and she just hangs up.
and then i text her, trying to just be normal again.
and she's still being a bitch.
so i'm like whatever,
and i shut my phone.
so then i get a text,
'bobby and hannah made out......'
and i go 'yupp, his parents like love her'
and she goes 'why the hell would you tell me that?'
'well why the HELL were you being such a bitch to me tonight?'
'well maybe because,' (AND I QUOTE) "you put me down and are two faced about things that make me want to kill myself"
THAT IS WHAT SHE SAID TO ME EXACTLY.
and i go 'two faced? you have got to be kidding me. because i'm pretty good friends with hannah?'
and she goes 'i'm already sobbing as it is, and then that just made it worse. and if it weren't for ashley, i'd prolly be cutting myself' or something like that.
and i go 'I WORK MY FUCKING ASS OFF TO MAINTAIN YOURS AND BOBBYS FRIENDSHIPS. AND I WORK ESPECIALLY HARD TO MAKE YOU FEEL *GOOD* ABOUT YOURSELF ALL THE DAMN TIME!! DON'T GIVE ME THE SHIT THAT I PUT YOU DOWN BECAUSE I SURE AS HELL DON'T. AND THERE WAS NO REASON FOR YOU TO BE SUCH A GODDAMN BITCH TO ME TONIGHT. AT. ALL.'
and shes like 'madi...look at what you sent me...do you really think thats gonna make me happy?'
and i go "i honestly don't care. no one can make you happy any ways maddie. i'm done. this is the third time this week that you've snapped at me like this when i've done nothing wrong. i want an enjoyable school year, without the goddamn drama. i work hard to help you, but you turn around and be a complete bitch to me. so i'm done. when you wanna be cool and chill again and be able to have fun, talk to me. because i love who you used to be."
and she goes "what if jake dumped you, wouldn't you be unhappy?"
and i go "extremely. but what if he did dump me, and you worked your ASS off to make me feel better about myself, but nothing you could do would help, and i constantly flipped a shit on you for no reason? you prolly wouldn't wanna be associated with me'
and she goes 'then stop being my friend. you do help, a lot. sorry. bye.'
and im like 'again, let me know when your okay with being normal again.'

IM. SO. PISSED.